Are you there, God? It's me, Lisa.

So, most of you know I am on a spiritual journey. For the longest time I have despised "organized religion". I have watched "Christians" preach hate and intolerance. I have questioned the existence of a higher power. I mean, how could this awesome being everyone keeps talking about allow such awful things to happen? God is confusing. He's also very sneaky. Today's message at church was "Words create worlds" and the power of using your words. I love when I can relate the message to my life,(Thanks Caleb!) and it reminded me of the first time I spoke out loud to God. It was 4 years ago and my sister was still deep into her addiction to drugs. I remember I was driving to work just thinking about her and crying (I did that often). I decided the only thing left I could do was to ask God to help her. I said out loud in the car "God, if you are real, PLEASE help my sister. I don't know what else to do. Just HELP her." Now, God could have just said "ok, Lisa- you got it." and be done with it. Nope. That's not what happened. He sent Mia instead. My sweet little innocent 6 year old niece. I was an instant parent. My focus of being angry at my sister and angry at my parents changed to joy and love for this beautiful little girl. Now with her daughter close by, Mary eventually found sobriety. We needed Mia, just has much as Mia needed us. Only God knew that. Our family is healing. I NOW believe that God heard my desperate prayer that day. Words ARE powerful. My heart will remain open and I will continue to learn and try to understand the power of Faith. I owe that much to the Big Guy. xoxox