The soul always knows what to do...the challenge is silencing the mind.

"Holy Shit." <------My thoughts as my knuckles were turning white from gripping the steering wheel. I was approaching Hollywood on the 101 Freeway during rush hour..for the first time. It was October 15th, 2001. I was 22 years old. I had $220 in my pocket and every article of clothing I owned packed in my car. I had no job. I had no place to live. I had my car, my clothes and the will to survive. I worked 3 jobs. I slept on people's couches. I slept in my car. I spent $20 a week on groceries..cheese quesadillas and peanut butter/jelly sandwiches. Once I got an apartment, I slept on a matteress on the floor. I had no furniture. I cried..alot. There was something inside my soul that wouldn't let me give up. I was going to make it and I refused to think anything different. I want THAT girl back. THAT girl was brave. SHE wasn't afraid to go after what she wanted. SHE wouldn't settle for the same ole' same ole'. I want more. My 22 year old inner self DESERVES more. Somewhere along the way that fire in my soul died, and I want it back! I am tired of having the same goals every year. No one can change that but me. So here it is: Health- I want to lose 50 more lbs. Education- I want to AT LEAST finish my general education credits. Relationships- I want to restore the passion in my marriage. I want to make more time for the people I care about. I also want to let go of people that don't add value to my life. So get ready. The most powerful force on earth is a human soul on fire.